Thursday, June 10, 2010

This has gotta be the good life, this has gotta be the good life

I've been replying to mail the last two days so if you sent me a letter or a postcard I should be sending one your way soon! :)

I have been going through a LOT with friends lately. I've kinda made a best friend, and I've grown apart from others.

I find it so weird how life can be going really slow and then all of a sudden everything has sped up and changed before you even get a chance to blink. In this process I have learned a few things.

Firstly, there are no such things as good and bad people. I've known that for awhile, but it has become even clearer to me recently. We're all human. We all start out as little babies who probably have no idea what we are getting ourselves into. Then we have an abusive parent, or loss something important to us, or even have classmates who call us mean names. We get hurt. We started disliking ourselves. We put up walls. And sometimes those walls turn us into really nasty people. But even the nastiest people have good in them somewhere. I'm positive.

The second thing I've learned is that even if you really care about someone and know they have amazing qualities about them that you admire and love, you can't always fix the bad stuff for them. Sometimes their insecurities and judgments hurt you too much to stay friends with them for the time being. Letting go can be almost as painful as holding on, except in the end you have to make yourself your #1 priority.

Thirdly, you have to be honest with yourself and others. Always. One lie turns in to a couple of lies and then before you know it you don't remember where the lies end and the truth starts. You can tell people what you are feeling without complaining all the time. (complaining is not attractive. If you're going to complain about something you must be willing to change what ever it is that you're complaining about.) Always tell the people who mean something to you how much you care about them. It is truly amazing how much others don't know if you don't tell them.

and lastly, it's okay to be independent and alone sometimes, but sometimes the risk of trusting someone can turn out magically. More people care about how you are feeling  more than you think. I promise.

There you have it! A few little things I've learned since I blogged last. :)



Anonymous said...

hannah, this is amazing.

Gabby said...

This is great, you seem to be fitting in to Los Angeles amazingly. Does that make sense? Uhm well, you seem like a really great friend. Hopefully I can run into you one day and chat.
(I live here also)

Kim said...

Amazing <3
Glad you're blogging again! I missed your blogs :)!

hannan nazri said...

Well, this is amazing n i didn't expect i'll find this post at the time i really need those words...